I am no writer. I am in love with Dreamwalker. If somehow you are here, he has convinced me to publish what I have written to him and for him. We started out as friends, when I wrote to him about his essay about Submisssion being a gift. The truth is, I felt like he was talking to me when I read it. When I wrote to tell him I loved it, he invited me to read his blog, and like many others, I fell in love with his writing. We wrote back and forth to eachother for almost a month. I told him about my life and he told me about his. Although we exchanged phone numbers early on, neither one of us felt compelled to ever use them. The writing was too enjoyable. During this time I could feel myself falling for him, he expresses himself so incredibly beautifully. This is what inspired me to start writing to him. I used to laugh to myself and picture him sitting in front of his computer, reading my writing and chuckling away saying “awwww look, she is trying to impress me” The truth is I have never written anything, and everything has been inspired by my feelings for him.
I am quite a normal person, well as normal as any of us are. I feel quite exposed and a bit insecure when I think someone is going to be reading this because these are all of my most intimate thoughts and darkest secrets. It feels sort of like walking naked through a hotel with everyone pointing and staring at you. I speak of Demons, and I am referring to the voice inside that tells us women all of the horrible things that none of us deserve to hear. You are ugly, fat, no one will ever love you, you are not a good person, etc…. They are becoming more and more quiet, over time. The more I am able to accept myself, including the dark part of myself, the easier it is to silence them. Dreamwalker has shown me that it is okay to accept those parts of myself, as well as some of the not so pleasant things that happen to us in life that so few of us in life manage to escape.
I love him deeply, I am sure you will see for yourself. These are my love letters to him.
Thank you for reading this, and if anyone has a question, I will answer it as truthfully as I can.
Peace & Love ~
Gentle Spirit